This is the first in a six-part series about the stories and sacrifices of local men and women during the Vietnam War. The series complements a Maryland Public Television initiative coming this summer honoring veterans of the war.

Otis “Eddie” Smith Jr. choked up as he recounted the advice his mother gave him as a 20-year-old Marine about to depart for Vietnam.

“She said, ‘You do what’s right in your heart, and you’ll come back to me,’” he said.

As he recalled that moment, his eyes filled with tears. He stood up and left the room, apologizing to a reporter.

Just as his mother hoped, Smith returned from his yearlong tour in Vietnam unscathed, at least to the naked eye. But the 66-year-old Ijamsville resident has continued to cope with the mental and emotional ramifications.

Most often, it’s the memories that inspire tears — things he never talked about until recently. Some pieces of his past he is discussing for the first time in this interview — of water running down dirt paths stained red with blood and bodies left on the side of the Que Son Mountains for days before helicopters could retrieve them.

It doesn’t take a war story to bring on waves of emotion, though.

“I can be driving down the road, and my emotions just start for no reason,” Smith said.

He recalled a recent conversation with a fellow customer at Home Depot. The woman told him that her son was a machine gunner in the Marine Corps. He immediately thought back to a machine gunner in his squad with the 1st Battalion, 7th Marines, who was killed in combat.

Fresh tears filled his eyes as he explained the connection.

“It really shook me up,” he said.

Smith is not alone. About 271,000 Vietnam theater veterans have post-traumatic stress disorder, as well as a specific subcategory called war-zone post-traumatic stress disorder, according to a 2015 study published by the American Medical Association. The subcategory applies specifically to people who experienced trauma in a violent war zone.

About a third of those veterans also suffer from depression, more than four decades after the war.

Smith returned home from frontline combat in 1970. For the first 40 years, he threw himself into his work, rising through the ranks to various leadership positions for large construction and development companies in Maryland.

It kept him busy, kept the difficult thoughts at bay. When those memories caught up with him, he turned to alcohol for comfort.

He gave up drinking after he realized it was becoming a problem. He said his first marriage — he’s now on his third — ended in part because of his inability to manage the waves of anger and sadness that overtook him.

Even then, he didn’t talk about it.

“I’m the type of person that liked to keep things suppressed, private,” he admitted.

Shortly before he retired in 2011, the flashbacks, nightmares, anger and bouts of uncontrollable crying began anew.

He spent Christmas of that year in treatment for post-traumatic stress disorder in the Martinsburg Veterans Affairs Medical Center in West Virginia, where he stayed for several months. When he got out, he continued to see a therapist for some time.

“They really helped me,” he said of the treatment center doctors and ensuing counselors. “They taught me not to suppress.”

Ronald Hoover is the post-traumatic stress disorder research portfolio manager at the Military Operational Medicine Research Program at Fort Detrick.

As a licensed psychologist, Hoover has treated veterans with the disorder. Its symptoms include an inability to recall key parts of the traumatic event or experience positive emotions, disruptions in normal sleep patterns and vivid flashbacks.

“For some people, it’s so salient that it’s almost as if they’re reliving the experience,” Hoover said.

In general, he said, veterans suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder have a state of heightened anxiety.

“Things that require the body and the mind to relax, such as sleep — they don’t happen the way they do in people who don’t suffer from PTSD,” Hoover said.

But the disorder is likely to affect more than the brain. In her research, Marti Jett has found that post-traumatic stress disorder can age combat veterans more quickly.

Jett is chief scientist of the Systems Biology Enterprise at the U.S. Army Center for Environmental Health Research at Fort Detrick. In a collaborative study with other research institutions, Jett is analyzing the genomes of recent combat veterans in their 20s and 30s and active-duty service members.

So far, they have found that the DNA repair mechanisms in their veteran test subjects have been weakened by the disorder, adding years to their lives. “They look seven years older than they are,” Jett said.

Jett’s study excluded Vietnam War veterans because they are likely to have what are “comorbid” illnesses, which in this case are conditions such as depression that occur simultaneously with post-traumatic stress disorder.

“There are a lot of comorbid illnesses that occur as people become 65 and older,” Jett said. “It’s difficult to understand what may have been from war and from their lives.”

Navy veteran Robert “Bob” Wyatt Jr., who lives in Harpers Ferry, West Virginia, developed post-traumatic stress disorder in 1968 and 1969 after spending nearly every day under fire for more than 300 days while working as a Seabee in a Vietnamese refugee village.

He didn’t carry a weapon or wear a military uniform while he was in the village, which made him safer from opposing Vietnamese forces but a target of American forces at the same time, Wyatt said.

It was an assignment he worked hard to get. His father, a World War II veteran, tried to persuade him not to enlist. At the time, Wyatt was married and had a newborn son.

“I could not see what my son would say if I tried to avoid my country’s call,” Wyatt said.

Once he enlisted, he became part of the Seabees, Navy units that build everything from buildings to bridges, and are also known as the U.S. Naval Construction Force. At the refugee camp, Wyatt was helping to build a school for Vietnamese children.

But as someone who grew up in a devoted, religious family, he wanted to do more. He assisted a chaplain and gave last rites to hundreds of dying service members in Vietnam.

Wyatt remembers being bombarded with mortar rounds at least once or twice a day. While he was out collecting sand and building materials for the school, he often heard shooting.

Despite the danger, he enjoyed the work. “I was probably high on adrenaline,” he said.

Wyatt was never physically injured. His troubles and illnesses developed after he came home.

“We didn’t know what PTSD was, but we knew there was something wrong with me,” he said.

He was uncomfortable in crowds and quick to anger. He had chronic headaches from the time he came home from Vietnam until just a few months ago, he said.

Nearly 15 years ago, doctors found he had developed prostate cancer, which Wyatt believes is a consequence of his exposure to Agent Orange.

He hit a turning point in his own struggle with post-traumatic stress disorder when he found out that the disorder has physical effects on the brain.

He started Building Veterans, an organization that strives to counsel veterans who suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder and help them find jobs and permanent homes.

Wyatt’s approach is to teach people with PTSD that the illness physically alters a part of the brain that stores and recalls memories. Veterans in Wyatt’s program get counseling and support from their peers as they work toward a stable life.

“We only know it’s working because our men’s lives are changing,” he said.

Building Veterans houses about 10 veterans in a home in Brunswick, as veterans move in and graduate throughout the year. Wyatt hopes to renovate a second Brunswick house this year to serve more veterans.

As for the hope of curing the disorder, Hoover said psychological research and treatment have come a long way, but PTSD is still a challenge.

“I think the objective of a 80 to 90 percent cure rate is certainly our target. I don’t think we are there, for a variety of reasons,” he said.

Some veterans never seek help, or they get help, but don’t keep up with their treatment program.

One of the treatment approaches is prolonged exposure therapy, which encourages a patient to talk through the traumatic memories, learn ways to control breathing and relaxation, and practice the methods in real-world situations.

“The VA invested very heavily in making sure their providers were well-trained in prolonged exposure therapy,” Hoover said.

Even after treatment, Smith doesn’t talk much about what he saw in Vietnam, even among other veterans.

How do you start a conversation with someone who never witnessed bullets whizzing past his head? How can that person understand what it was like to see a room full of refugees attacked just as they sat down to lunch? Or the time you watched fellow riflemen shoot down a Vietnamese person running from a village, laughing when they discover it was a young girl?

Still, Smith considers himself one of the ones who’s “made it.”

He has a home, a wife and a family. He enjoys golf and keeps a foot in property development.

He can go to the Vietnam Veterans Memorial in Washington now, too. When it was first unveiled, he left quickly, unable to stay.

But the memories that accompany a visit to the wall haven’t disappeared.

“I literally hear the kids screaming, the gunfire, all the noise,” he said.

Follow Nancy Lavin on Twitter: @Nancy_Lavin228. Follow Sylvia Carignan on Twitter: @SylviaCarignan.

Nancy Lavin covers social services, demographics and religion for The Frederick News-Post.

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Thanks very much, Frederick News-Post, for sharing stories about our region's Vietnam veterans and highlighting our MPT Salutes Vietnam Veterans initiative -- including our documentary and "LZ Maryland" event. We invite everyone to join the conversation on our Facebook page and keep up-to-date on all the activities we have planned in the coming months!

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vicdavy

My heart goes out to all Vietnam Veteran and all they went thru, fighting one of America's Foreign Policy Mistakes! I had a friend die from cancer due to Agent Orange exposure and I do in-home care for another Vietnam Vet who has Parkinson's Disease from AO exposure. John and I were at Camh Rahn Bay Air Force Base at the same time in 1969,although we didn't know each other then. He's a good man and we share some memories together. I feel blessed that I can help. Let's Study War No more!

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One treatment that has proven effective is called iRest, which is actually an ancient Yoga meditative practice called Yoga Nidra. The military chose to call it by another name (iRest) because of the resistance by high ranking military to use a treatment with Yoga in it's name.

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There have been several studies using non-traditional methodology to treat those suffering from PTSD. They have proven effective, yet the military still is reluctant to make them widely available to those suffering from PTSD.

dtwigg

It truly is unfortunate how slow the military has been in recognizing that many veterans need help dealing with PTSD.

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